(English isn't my first language, so I am sorry if it's difficult to understand me). Well, I am having a problem what everyone had, it's just some of us are much stronger some of much weaker and I am much weaker, that's why I need somebody to give his/hers hand. I am 17 years old boy and I am in love with a girl, but she dumped me some days ago, she even didn't say anything. She's totally ignoring me, but I can't live without her. Before she filled my heart with love, now there's only a strong acid in my heart, burning it deeply, which is very painless. She wasn't just like a random girl, I mean it... You may think that I am weird, but before I went to sleep (in my younger age 13-16) I kept dreaming of a girl, well I got picked on school, so I really hoped that I'll have a very beautiful and a romantic girlfriend, which happened.. She looked like even similar to the girl in my dreams. I often think about her, everywhere where I look , everything reminds me her. I don't wanna be without her, but she's totally ignoring me.. I see her in my dreams, every night, she's looking at me and laughing, but it always wakes me up and my heart fills with anger again and depression.. I don't even know what exactly happened, I wish there was a reason, I mean before she loved me so much, she was so romantic to me and I was so happy with her. I've thought about suicides before I met her often, because I got picked in school, but I always kept my head up , no matter what, but now I am beaten down, I can't.. Why am I crawling ? Why acid is burning my heart into pieces and very slowly ? I can't take this anymore ! What do I have to do ? At least I wanna sleep normal. I've tried to listen to the relaxing music before I go to sleep, I can go to sleep well that way, I fall asleep like a baby, but then at the middle of the night I see dreams of her and nothing helps.. Please help me, I get so angry that I start to shake and I feel like I wanna die. Look, the pain is moving faster than the light, so I can't run from it by other ways.. When I've been depressed (well, I've never been that mad and depressed) I've asked help from Yahoo!Answers.. I usually get answers like : "Take a tampon out and grow balls" or , "u cnt even spell"... and when I email to them that English isn't my first language, then they tell: "idc, i live in usa".. So I hope people like in here aren't like that and the pain I described.. well, it's actually much worse, it's just there are no words to describe. What do I have to do? Please help me? I don't have even any friends.. She was the closest thing I ever had and I cared for her so much, I wanted to make her the happiest life being ever, but instead of it she's poisoning my heart. I can't take this pain anymore! I know it takes time , but is there any chance that I couldn't feel that pain anymore that much ? * Every time when I hear a word love or read something about love (which I have to do for the school) or see people holding their hands, kissing /hugging each others.. It hurts me now, I don't know why though .. but I really gave my best to make her happy. Please help me. Thank you.