Any religious arguments will not be considered (by me anyway). I don't buy into religion, I think that it is inherently detrimental to a modern, progressive society. I live in a house where nobody listens when I speak, everybody just hears whatever the hell they want to hear. I don't have a job (though I am looking for one). Video games are the only things that make me feel anything other than crushing depression. It feels as if everything that I hear and that I see points me in the direction of "You should go fucking kill yourself. You're worthless and a waste of resources." When I brought up the issue of it feeling as if nobody listens to me when I try to speak with my mother today, she replied like a two year old with "Well if you feel like nobody listens to you when you talk, then I feel like you don't listen to me when I talk". My mother sarcastically will say things like "My children hate each other, I'm a terrible mother, I should kill myself" when we get into arguments as if to belittle the fact that I legitimately want to kill myself nearly every time I talk with her and my brother. Is there even a reason to keep living? Life is stupid. People are jackasses. Nobody cares. To them, my death would be an inconvenience because they'd have to identify a corpse. So why am I still alive? Why should I keep living? I hate everything and there is seemingly no chance of this ridiculous pain ending.