First of all, I don't know where this should go, because it's not a disorder, just a state of mind. It's sort of my philosophy on why I don't commit suicide. Ok. I see the universe as a vast place, where a single person.. a whole race of people.. a whole planet, even, as being extremely insignificant. I could explain this further, but it's a simple concept. that being said, i see myself dying affecting very little, just the people around me and then the people around them are affected by the people affected by me. So it does affect a lot of people, but not by a lot after a little while. yea, yea, butterfly effect and all that shit. still, none of this matters. Nothing matters. Society is just a hierarchy of people all scrambling to show off to their friends and people trying to get laid. Our governments are a bunch of corrupt officials who juggle trying to keep society balanced while getting what they want done by using their power. So i see all this, and then i see the easy way out of this redundant shit, which is suicide or maybe drugs\alcohol or something to not have to deal with the system. I think even crime would be easier than trying to do well in school and work your way up a corporate chain, or trying to start your own business. Money would be nice to have, but it just fuels the rat race. Suicide is the easiest way out, you never have to deal with anything again. But.. I don't really know why, but i probably won't commit suicide. At least not yet. I'm living right now just for the hell of it. I want to see what I can do in this world. Just filling the common 'earthly' desires is fun enough. Seeing how far i can get mentally is rewarding too. So i guess in a nutshell, my philosophy on life is.. Do what you want, because you want to do it, and for no other reason. Just keep in mind that you are insignificant, and your life doesn't matter any more than anybody else's. Other people don't matter, not at all. But, using my philosophy, you would treat them like any other person would treat them, because if you don't, there will be consequences, either them not liking you, leading to other people not liking you, or you going to jail for a criminal act. both of these are things you probably don't want. or, using my format; "stay out of jail because it beats the alternative" But still, If I ever get bored of life or things get too hard for me to want to wait them out, I will kill myself without hesitation. PLEASE, tell me your thoughts on why I'm wrong, because I'm almost sure i have at least a few logical flaws. ADMINS please move this somewhere more appropriate, if you see fit.