Basically, i've been having this "problem" for ages, but it's been very hard to describe.
The thing is, that my mind and emotions constantly change.
For example: This morning i was thinking about how high my self esteem has become, how i can finaly respect myself and accept myself etc... Few hourst ago, i realised that i actually have low self esteem and that i dislike myself.
This has happened millions of the times, one day i consider my self esteem as high, the other as low, next day as moderate etc...
Another example:
I was playing violin today and i thought my playing sucks, that i need to practice more and that i play really average... one week ago, when i performed infront of few friends, i felt like i would be the best violinist on the world...
The problem is, that things like this happen daily, all the time. The consequence is that i'm totally confused and dont know who i really am and what i want because of it...
Is there a name for this? What actually is my real problem that causes me to think and feel like that? Because the same things is with emotions... one moment i feel like i really love a friend of mine and the next moment i feel like he i like her or him, but he or she has many mistakes and we're not that good friends really....
EDIT: Another example... Few weeks ago i met someone, who showed many symptoms disorder x (i dont feel like talking details)... as i was reading some articles, i was 100% sure that he has it. Next morning i realised that this person actually doesnt with criteria for that disorder that much... all this stuff is making my life so confusing...
The thing is, that my mind and emotions constantly change.
For example: This morning i was thinking about how high my self esteem has become, how i can finaly respect myself and accept myself etc... Few hourst ago, i realised that i actually have low self esteem and that i dislike myself.
This has happened millions of the times, one day i consider my self esteem as high, the other as low, next day as moderate etc...
Another example:
I was playing violin today and i thought my playing sucks, that i need to practice more and that i play really average... one week ago, when i performed infront of few friends, i felt like i would be the best violinist on the world...
The problem is, that things like this happen daily, all the time. The consequence is that i'm totally confused and dont know who i really am and what i want because of it...
Is there a name for this? What actually is my real problem that causes me to think and feel like that? Because the same things is with emotions... one moment i feel like i really love a friend of mine and the next moment i feel like he i like her or him, but he or she has many mistakes and we're not that good friends really....
EDIT: Another example... Few weeks ago i met someone, who showed many symptoms disorder x (i dont feel like talking details)... as i was reading some articles, i was 100% sure that he has it. Next morning i realised that this person actually doesnt with criteria for that disorder that much... all this stuff is making my life so confusing...