Hi! I'm a newbie to this forum. I'm 28 years old and thinking about suicide for 3-5 years now. I can't remember the exact date and reason why i wan't to kill myself but the feeling has grown in me for some time now. So far i haven't killed myself because of my family and relatives but i'm quite sure i will do it within the timeframe of one year. But that is not the reason of my posting. Why i'm here is the question why people like us chose to be alone rather than be with friends. I only read some of the threads but it seems like i am not the only one around here who prefers to drink alone rather than with friends. Personally i don't understand it, have you found a reason for it?