Hi, i'll try not to go on too much but i have so much to say and no one to say it to. I've been suffering with depression since the beginning of this year and my mood has been getting lower and lower. I've also just been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder after being raped 2 years ago. I have taken numerous overdoses and spent 6 weeks on a psychiatric ward earlier this year. I also cut my arms and stomach to try and cope. I have seen many different doctors and psychiatrists but it's been no help to me at all. I've tried different medications but they've had no affect on my mood. I have a care co-ordinator who visits me at home once a week and she has been doing so much to try and help but the problem is me. Whenever I visit doctors etc I always end up getting angry with them. Mostly because they just don't understand what it's like to live like this. I want the help so bad but deep down I know that there is nothing that can help me and the only option left is to try and end my life for good. I'm down on a waiting list to see a psychologist but i'm not convinced it will help as I find it really hard to open up and talk to people. Especially people i don't know. I'm also incredibly lonely. I don't have any friends and don't really get on with my family. I just spend all my time locked away in my bedroom crying my eyes out and getting myself into such a state that i end up being physically sick. I don't get any sleep and i have stopped eating in the hope that i can just waste away and die. All I wanted was for someone to care about me and to at least try and understand how much i was suffering. I don't have anything to live for. anyway, sorry for going on so much but I just needed to let it all out.