Is there really an point to life, would ending it be that terrible, I mean nothing that waits in the abyss could be as bad as the torment and hell I create for myself. Talked to my mum today thought that maybe if I told her about the way I feel that maybe being my mum she would know what to say. I told her I felt a disappointment that things weren't going to well for me, guess caught her on an off day "maybe you feel like a disappointment because you are one,just like your father, you should be more like your sister." So she wants me to be a narcissistic manipulative person. All I seem to do is disappoint maybe would just be easier to give up I mean its not like I have anything to offer the world. I'm nice and considerate but no one wants that. Made me feel so worthless I cut myself,yet another scar to remind me of how disappointing I am.