is there anyhting right with me?

Discussion in 'I Have a Question...' started by Shifter, Mar 30, 2009.

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  1. Shifter

    Shifter Well-Known Member

    part of my former suicidal urge was how bad everyday-life is on me.....
    here is a recap:
    my back hurts at least 3 times a day
    the depression feels like my brain is being compacted in car crusher
    I'm a 16 year old male and i have the stamina of a 60 year old man
    i have recurring sharp stomach pains in the morning before,after or during breakfast
    my stomach feels like its noting only in school >_>
    on my way to classes i run out of breath(this has been going on for all 2 years of high scholl:sad:)
    if you tap me u will be reminded of moving water x.x(yet if i stand up straight and look down i can still see my feet)
    i try to work in school but i lost interest to do it(i can't if i try i don't refuse to)
    i think im too soft(as in my flesh ._.)
    i can't enjoy life
    i can't animate as long as i used to
    i am uncomfortable with my appearance in public
    don't try to work out or stay in shape
    don't attempt to get girls(most of em either hate me or ignore me)
    my life is way to repetitive on a daily basis
    i should be fatter than i look and that fact scares me....
    the constant feeling of alienation.......
    and i can't open up to anyone face to face....

    the only things i have are brains, character, the knowledge im not a total waste of space on this miserable planet X.X what do i do to end this? If suicide isn't the answer.......
  2. water

    water Guest

    sure there are things right with u
    yr young and talented no matter what anyone else says
    things will get better for u with time even your health
    hang in there
    find a good doctor, and realise that u r a good person who deserves happiness and a great life
  3. DiscoverPeaceOfMind

    DiscoverPeaceOfMind Active Member

    The recap of your post is simply a list of symptoms of depression. And depression is simply a symptom in itself. So, for that big long list, condense it to one line. "Depressive symptoms"
    The key part of your post is at the end, "the only things i have are brains, character, the knowledge im not a total waste of space"

    Tell me if Im wrong....I will guarantee that you have a higher than normal IQ based on that comment alone. And I'm not talking about academic grades.

    As for your back pain, stop looking down regularly. It's a 'side-effect' that you are a 'feelings' person. Your head will hang forward in front of your shoulders, your ears indicate you stand out of alignment to your shoulders. Ears should be above your shoulders.

    The voices of doubt are merely one part of you that is trying to provide safety...There are many parts to each of us. The voice of doubt is the 'safety' voice, but it regularly goes too far and you get paralysed in your comfort zone.

    A guy like you could EASILY become a beacon of inspiration to those around you just by doing no more than your regular daily routine. and yes, it will need to be a different routine than what you have now. The teenage years are the years of 'socialisation acceptance' if you're on the outer, I understand how low you can feel. Preceeded by forms of family acceptance and followed by 'self acceptance'.

    Being advanced, you're probably on the cusp of socialisation and self acceptance and feeling poorly about both of them.

    The 'how to' get over this is longer than your arm, yet as instant as you can understand. Physically, Stand tall, do the hard yards at school, and implement your own personal 'no put down' zone. Do not insult anyone. They probably feel lower than you! Because you dont display the traits of self respects, the bullies - who have very low esteem - may prowl. People WILL try to drag you down as you overcome your symptoms. Practice postive speech patterns and learn to read the insecurities of others.

    And when the voices of doubt whisper in your ear, thank them for trying to provide your safety and then stretch out from your comfort zone to follow your life's purpose.
  4. Shifter

    Shifter Well-Known Member

    thanks for all the support
  5. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    I agree that you should discuss this with your MD...there are several medical conditions (all very treatable) which could account for these symptoms...have a full work-up, including a thyroid screen and see if there is anything underlying these complaints...also tell your MD how you are feeling so that the emotional component of this can be addressed...J
  6. Shifter

    Shifter Well-Known Member

    wouldn't an md force drugs on me? thats kinda y i don't see one much....
  7. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    It depends what the underlying problem/s is/are...first let someone diagnose and then decide...J
  8. Shifter

    Shifter Well-Known Member

    yah true...
  9. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    You just described me perfectly in you original post, save the back pain.
  10. Shifter

    Shifter Well-Known Member

    u suffer all those? no freaking way.....
  11. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    Pretty much.

    Minor differences and all that, but for the most part, yeah that's a fairly accurate description of me.
  12. Shifter

    Shifter Well-Known Member

    wow. now i don't feel as big a freak.....
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