Please is there anybody there I can't do this anymore. My name is Kevin and I've been living a lie for the past year. I've been in therapy since 2005 until last year when I had to move away and leave the only people who understood me behind. I suffer from clinical depression. I try to act calm but I can't keep this charade up. No one knows what is happening. I'm falling apart. All the people I thought were my friends have abandoned me. I see them every day and they ignore me like I'm a complete stranger and oh god it hurts so bad. I hurt myself because I feel so bad and I feel like I HAVE to, I NEED to hurt something. I rip the skin off my lips and watch them bleed and say I get into fights. I rip my hair out. I slash and slice my arms and legs so maybe someone will like me. That has to e the only reason they avoid me it's because I'm bad I'm terrible I'm a fucking demon and I can't be fixed I have to do it I have to hurt myself I have to be punished thenaybe they'll like me I won't be bad anymore I'll be good and then well laugh and have fun like I used to but it doesn't work it won't work it can't work it'll never work. Sometimes I feel like hurting them. S THERE ANYONE ELSE THERE???????