There is one particular statistic about suicide that has always bothered me: "The majority of suicides suffer from at least one mental illness; 85% of cases suffer from one form of depression. " I often wonder why it is that society has no problem excusing the behavior of a schizophrenic suffering from delusions, but continue to pretend that those of us who suffer from depression and the self-destructive urges, ranging from self-harm to suicide, are merely giving into the disease. That we've had free will all along, and to submit to one of those urges is just a wanton act of disregard for others around you. Why do we say that schizophrenics are unable to help and occasionally act on their hallucinations, but depressants are expressing free will when they give in to their urges -- urges which most depressed people feel compelled to do by the disease. My reasons for suicide are almost always excuses I have to come up with for why I feel so bad. It's feeling like killing myself, followed by coming up with an excuse for it. So my question is: Should we as depressed and suicidal people, tell the world to start disregarding the concept of free will in discussing our struggles against suicidal impulses? I just can't help but feel it's similar to an oncologist berating his patient with leukemia for giving in.