I have been self harming since I was around 11, but a few years ago my friend told me that shed started doing it aswell. I used to carry a blade around underneath a sticker on my phone, and we were both drunk at a party and she told me to cut her. This is going to sound insane, but I have sort of a fetish when it comes to cutting people, maybe its to make myself seem less fucked up because I do it. But well, I did. And she was bleeding so much. She still has the scars, and I feel terrible about it. This is more of a vent than anything, Im just wondering if anyone else has done the same thing or had the same urges or theyre friend asking you to do it for them.