I don't know anymore... What is the point? I wake up. Go to school. Come home. Then i spend the rest of the day in my room...wasting time.... I dont feel alive... I mean everything is fading away, and so am I. I really want to kill myself, but the problems is that i don't want to do. That is actually funny and pathetic. But i really cant live like this anymore. I am so alone.... nothing makes me happy anymore, i feel like everything is gone... Other teenagers looks so happy, why cant i be? I don't see point in doing this rutine anymore... Im failure, I suck at everything.... No mather how hard i try. Im tired of my low self esteem... I feel so ugly that i even dont go out anymore... i dont feel comfortable if other are watching me... And i know i will get better one day.... But its going to be a month or 2, and then depression again.... I dont fight depression, with each day i step one step further into the downward spiral.... I dont have motivation to fight... beside, i dont know how.... I drifted so far, that i cant see the road the anymore.... It's all ilussion.