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Is this live?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Hurted, Jan 30, 2009.

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  1. Hurted

    Hurted Well-Known Member

    I don't know anymore... What is the point?

    I wake up. Go to school. Come home. Then i spend the rest of the day in my room...wasting time....

    I dont feel alive... I mean everything is fading away, and so am I.

    I really want to kill myself, but the problems is that i don't want to do.

    That is actually funny and pathetic.

    But i really cant live like this anymore. I am so alone.... nothing makes me happy anymore, i feel like everything is gone...

    Other teenagers looks so happy, why cant i be?

    I don't see point in doing this rutine anymore... Im failure, I suck at everything.... No mather how hard i try.

    Im tired of my low self esteem... I feel so ugly that i even dont go out anymore... i dont feel comfortable if other are watching me...

    And i know i will get better one day.... But its going to be a month or 2, and then depression again....

    I dont fight depression, with each day i step one step further into the downward spiral....
    I dont have motivation to fight... beside, i dont know how.... I drifted so far, that i cant see the road the anymore.... It's all ilussion.
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Hi Hurted,

    I'm sorry you feel this way too.

    What do you think the difference between you and other teenagers is?

    There must be something you enjoy doing? Maybe it's time to find new hobbies? :hug:
  3. Mandy1

    Mandy1 Antiquities Friend & Senior Member

    Hi there,sorry your feeling so down right now,its the depression hun,are you taking meds,is there anything you can think of that you like doing.You have friends here,me for one,please take care,and keep talking.Mandy x
  4. Hurted

    Hurted Well-Known Member

    Difference? Rather ask me what i have in common with others:)
    Im really weird.... But i don't mind it, I just wish i could be as happy as most of them are.

    There are things that i still enjoy, but not many, and "those things" dont give me as much pleasure as the used to....
    New hobbies? Well.... since i remember, i never had many hobbies:)

    Im not taking meds. It is depression, but my life would suck in any case.
    I like my friends on here, but sometimes i would really need a real hug instead of :hug: :)

    I really aprecciate both posts, its nice to know that someone cares.

    I am much better now.
  5. soliloquise

    soliloquise Well-Known Member

    (( hurted ))
  6. Eric

    Eric Well-Known Member

    Have you tried participating in activities that you like? Life doesn't have to be monotone, you could try different things ;)
  7. Hurted

    Hurted Well-Known Member

    Nothing interests me....Don't know...
  8. Epical Taylz

    Epical Taylz Well-Known Member

    Hurted, I feel the same way as you do

    going through the day in a routine, nothings new.
    It's in my member's diary on the last page.

    :hug: I wish I could give you a real hug.
    You play piano, correct?
    Maybe you could sign up for a concert at a civic center.

    if you have low self-esteem about going out and joining a concert
    then you could wear a mask during it.
    it isn't meant to be funny my dear,
    I've done it before with guitar, and it really helps.
    plus it makes you seem mysterious, and people will wanna talk to you because of that.

    :hug: please don't give up
    I don't know what I would do without you.. :cry:
  9. Mandy1

    Mandy1 Antiquities Friend & Senior Member

    Hugs Hugs Hugs Hugs (sorry smilies dont work) mandyx
  10. Buggsy2008

    Buggsy2008 Well-Known Member

    :hug: you'll come through it... even though it might not seem like it now. :hug:
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