so um i have noticed somethings that have gone weird with me ever since i met a friend 2 years ago every time i don't see her and i need to rant about something my ming automatically visualizes her face in our classroom where i usually had class with her and in my head i rant to her unconsciously.
before when i wanted to stop thinking about someone or something i uses to visualize it getting cutin half to get rid of it but now that feeling has turned into something else. it turned into a feeling more like filleting something. i can image creamy thing getting perfectly sliced in thin slice but at the same time it loos more closes to a boiled egg and white fish than human thighs. that feeling goes away slight when i debone chicken thighs and take fat of drumsticks when i cook chicken.
i also seemed to be obsessed with names and faces for some reason i want to get them out of my head but they became intrusive thoughts this started to happen when this kid said i had a crush on him i wanted to say no but i didn't so that thought was haunting ever since my brain kept finding better ways to say no in that situation and wont stop it.
before when i wanted to stop thinking about someone or something i uses to visualize it getting cutin half to get rid of it but now that feeling has turned into something else. it turned into a feeling more like filleting something. i can image creamy thing getting perfectly sliced in thin slice but at the same time it loos more closes to a boiled egg and white fish than human thighs. that feeling goes away slight when i debone chicken thighs and take fat of drumsticks when i cook chicken.
i also seemed to be obsessed with names and faces for some reason i want to get them out of my head but they became intrusive thoughts this started to happen when this kid said i had a crush on him i wanted to say no but i didn't so that thought was haunting ever since my brain kept finding better ways to say no in that situation and wont stop it.