as ive mentioned in my previous posts, ive been having a lot of trouble with my husband, burying his head and egnoring the storm of crap thats surrounding us after the charges and the court dates exc,,,,, problem is it isnt only his head hes been burying. a few weeks ago i woke up at 4am to find him 'inside' me. ive never refused him sex before, even if i wasnt in the mood, i would always relent and let him do as he wishes,,, but that,,,,, that just,,, didnt feel right. it felt sooo absolutly not right. he keeps doing it. the thing is,, he was talking with his friend and his girlfriend and she was telling us how her partner liked it when she was asleep, or pretending to be asleep, and we had a laugh and a joke saying it was necrophilia. he wont stop ive tried to bring it up with dave,, but he just laughs it off, like im playing, and not serious, he doesnt take anything i say seriously, he hasnt for a while. he put his hand over my mouth and told me to 'shusshhhh,, go back to sleep'' as he pushed himself inside,,the 'wrong' place.(rearward) i know ive joked about it with his mates and what they get up to, but i hate this, ive taken to locking the bedroom door but hes figured out how to open it, ive asked him to leave and its anything i can do to not be in the house, i sleep at friends, i go away with friends,,, anything. i felt so sick and violated ive tried to talk to him, he doesnt care, he thinks its funny. now he doesnt come near me at all. my marrage is totally fcuked, we were getting along as friends till this started. now hes ,, its like hes flipped, im scared of what he will do next, but i love him. i know its because of everything thats going off,,,, i know its sending him crazy,,,,, but im not strong enough. not for the both of us. its killing me where did i go wrong?