I've been really frustrated with my conduct at work and at home lately. So, I decided yesterday that if I failed to concentrate on work while at work I would hit myself as hard as I could manage with a rubber mallet on the fat part of my thigh. I figured this way I'd motivate myself to get things done. Well, I failed. So this morning about 5:30 AM I took a rubber mallet and hit myself ten times on the fat part of my quadriceps, as hard as I could manage. It stung like hell while I was doing it, but five minutes after I stopped most of the pain had receded, and in the shower there wasn't even a black and blue mark. Probably because the mallet has a wide head and is of rubber, albeit a very hard rubber. I'm thinking if I'd have used a claw hammer it would be a different story. Today has been equally bad, so tomorrow early in the AM I'm planning on a repeat performance, except this time it'll be fifteen whacks. Hopefully I'll get the message at some point. And when I do I plan on terminating this exercise. I'd considered going the cutting route, I certainly have no fear of scars or blood. Just too likely to lead to discovery. Though I must admit this afternoon the leg has gotten a bit sore and there seems to be something a bit, well, squishy, going on down there, I'm thinking this is just about the ideal approach. No blood, minimal visible evidence and it hurts like crazy when I'm doing it. Which should drive home the message. Thoughts?