I started receiving Anxiety,Depression & Panic attacks about two years ago. I went to bed as normal and basically didn't get up for three weeks. I didn't understand what was going on and thought that was the end of me, there were no other explanations…I was dying. During that three weeks I had a worst hits tapes playing in my mind of every wrong thing I've done in my life,I felt awful…useless even. For my mind this wasn't enough now the thoughts switched to suicide and how much easier it would be if I wasn't here. After the three weeks I told my husband I couldn't take anymore I could give in or I could go out. So I went out. The GP wasn't very understanding and sent me away with medication alongside beta blockers to slow my heart rate down but never once explained what Anxiety was or why it's doing this to me! I began to get irritable with people and lost patience and that's where losing my family came in…they didn't understand me anymore and I didn't understand ME. They left me to fend for myself so now moving on it's just me,my husband and my autistic daughter of Nine years old. It's hard work and I'm scared all the time. I have no friends and to be honest if family can do that to me I couldn't bear to carry that cross again it's too painful. To bring it to this moment in time I've broken my foot by falling down the stairs in my home, my daughter is angry all the time and constantly shouts and screams at me, My husband has had strokes and now a heart attack so no doubt I'll probably be on my own soon "literally" I'm terrified and I feel like this is too much for one person to take and I don't want to be here anymore this time through my bouts of Anxiety I have made plans and that scares me even more. I don't want to die but I feel like I'm in a living nightmare "no family,no friends" Alone. I can't take the pain anymore.