It may sound hard to believe as you read my post. But I consider myself pretty patient person. At least that is how I was able to survive through hell for the last 10 yrs despite one torture after another. When this war against severe depression and trauma started 10 yrs ago, I said to myself, "Life is not paradise. I expect turbulences/obstacles but I will be able to overcome them. This severe depression/trauma is horrendously painful. But I will overcome it within 10 yrs." 10 yrs just passed in New Year's and I am still struggling mightily. Despite bone-grinding efforts and tenacious willpower, I am still suffering horribly from depression. Years of therapy and meds only had limited success. Is this life really worth it? How can anyone endure this kind of life? All I want is life of obstacles/challenges I can handle and manage. Is that too much to ask? Am I being unreasonable person?