i am really sick of everyione knowing about my problems... pretty much every one knows about my suicidal stuff and cutting and depression. i dont want to have to cover it up, i want to be able to be honest with my school counsellor, i really do. but by law she has to tell someone my mum is worryed s***less about me to the point that i have to sleep with my door open and not allowed to go on holidays or be home alone. so i am thinking that i could maybe cover it all up?? just pretend to be happy, pretend to be able to sleep at night, pretend that i dont want to die... but all that seems hard to pretend to do, because i want to be honest... just that being honest gets me put in hospital. help?