when you tried to suicide, had you already planned it before? for example, when i tried last year, i'd been thinking about it for weeks and had already chosen a day to do it. then i just waited for that day to come and did it. it was planned, i wanted to succeed. and now, if you're feeling suicidal, are you thinking about a particular day or period to do it? for example,i'm thinking about it again but for some weird reason i absolutely want to hold on untill sept/opt at least.. then i think i'll just give up. i don't know why, but it's like as if i've already planned to keep on till that period.. you?