Looking back, I realize that I've accomplished a lot of things and had the opportunity to experience a lot of things. I've had my share of problems in the past, but nothing one would consider to be a rough upbringing. It's almost been one year since I began my career, and everything seems to be fine. Yet, I feel really dead and numb inside. Instead of appreciating all that I have, I can't help but think about what I don't have. I hate re-reading this because I already know I come across as arrogant in it. Anyways, my point being, life is boring, nothing seems to really change. Same workdays, same clubs on the weekends, same superficial LA crowd. It's so mundane, it's so boring, it's so cliche. I really can't help but feel that going out now would be the greatest career move of all. 23, I've hit my peak, and instead of finding out if it's downhill from here, I can explore the afterlife, see what's next. Becoming a legend in my circle of friends, talked about for the rest of their existence.