It's funny to me how one song can throw you into a tail spin. This one effected me because it's saying EXACTLY how I've been feeling all of this month. Two Years This Month It’s been two years this month Since the last time we spoke And it’s starting to seem That the only thing everlasting Is this vow of silence Well, I guess that’s the vow that we took But not at first At first I was screaming Those songs you heard two years ago On that night we last spoke. ---- Two years ago, right before Christmas, I told my friend Rob that I had a cutting problem. That was the night that he became overwhelmed and left my side. We haven't truly talked since. He was holding me up back then...and it wasn't healthy and I can see that now. But it still hurts. Part of me still needs him. The only thing everlasting is the vow of silence. Throughout our falling out, there was one cd that was getting me through it. Unfortunately, it wasn't good music...lol but it was loud and drowned out the sound of my screaming. Hawthorne Heights. There was one song specifically that made me feel a bit better. It was the song called "Silver Bullet." "I've got a single silver bullet, shot right through the heart, to prove I can survive without you." He made a comment about my music once. He said, "It seems like your music has gotten angrier. Is anything wrong?" He played the clueless card. But it's ok. I forgive him now. At first I was screaming those songs you heard two years ago. On that night we last spoke. This song caught me off guard. But I'm doing ok. I stopped myself from cutting. Just to spite him, I held off. I can do this. And even if I can't, you're going to watch me try.