Lately I've been isolating myself from people as a coping mechanism. I don't really "fit in" and I have found that isolating myself from most people makes me happier. People have expectations of how you are supposed to be, and I've never matched those, so when I'm not around people I have my own world - where those things don't matter and i control it. Is also depressing seeing people ahead of you in life. I thinks it's better to just be alone, then constantly seeing a better life that you can't have. I can't conform even if I wanted too, I'm a oddity, and a dork. Asking me to be normal is like asking a guy in a wheelchair to walk. I do hang out with a few people I arealdy know, but no one else. It's annoying how as soon as people find out I don't have a girlfriend, cellphone, or an overwhelming desire to gain those things, it's down hill from there. I am religious which kind of forces me to be more social, whether thats good or bad I don't know. I look like a little boy, and I'm soft spoken most of the time, meek, so I think most people look down on me, and pitty me as that geeky little guy, whether then seeing me as an equal. Most of these things may just be me, but all I know is I feel better alone. Dealing with chronic misanthropy at times doesn't make it much better either.