I'm so tired of everything and nothing seems to excite me anymore. I just feel like crawling in bed, closing my eyes, and everything will be over. I feel lonely, like no one supports me. My parents pretty much made me feel terrible when I came out as panromantic asexual and agender. They blamed it on the internet and told me it was just a phase. Every time I'm with them I can't even enjoy myself when my mind is screaming "You're alone! They don't love you! You're terrible for never being able to be the daughter they wanted!" Makes me sad to know that the people I thought I could trust make me feel like disappearing. I know life ahead will be tough and I just don't want to go through with it. I'm a waste of space and time just sitting here. I can't get the motivation or the confidence to do anything. Everything would just me easier for me, for everyone, if I could just peacefully close my eyes and never open them again.