i feel like i'm stumbling through some kind of dream. at the moment everything is okay, my family is alive and well and so are my friends...i should be happy but the reality is that i've never felt so detached from reality in my life. i don't feel like myself anymore. i just feel like another meaningless mass of energy created just to further the human species. ultimately i have no worth, i have no purpose. i can't focus, i get headaches when i try. which makes me frustrated and even more depressed. i have a hard time even typing this. it's all so overwhelming. time, existence...consciousness....what is anything??? what ARE we put on this earth for?? ...it's times like this that really makes me wish i wasn't even born to begin with.