I feel bad posting here. I have mainly been hiding in the shadows talking to the few friends. I kind of ignored the forums. I am sorry to ask for help when not giving back any of my own. Anyway, today was the first time in about 2 months that I just casually thought about suicide. It just sort of came to me, I should.... well kill myself. I do not know why... It just came to me... then I do not know... I became really depressed. It is just.... I don't know.... worries me... for so long I was doing ok. Then just an off thought for no good reason. I am doing my best to improve... however, it feels like everything is crashing down... maybe ti is the stress of work.. I am kind of tired... I just do not know what to do... Thanks for reading, I think I am going to sleep for now.