I don't exactly consider myself suicidal...well I didn't. It's always been something on the back of my mind.i think it's normal as a human being to think about it from time. Recently however, I've been carrying a note with me. Not necessarily a suicide note. More just I love you and here is how you handle things when I'm gone note. It's getting harder now I just keep holding myself from walking into traffic. Then I think, I THINK! What if I live? What if someone tries to stop me. It's one thing to die but it's another to take some undeserving person with you. At this point I don't know why I'm posting on here. Searching for common ground I guess Maybe some search for normalcy. If There's someone else who feels the same way maybe it's not so bad. Or perhaps even ways to cope...I know the classics, jog, talk and even drink has been recommended but always by someone who looks a scans of brains and assume that they all can be fixed the same way.