To have somewhere on here that a new member can post immediately, and get immediate response. Or even let them in chat. even if its just one little section and the rest of the area is under the restrictions. Phone is out of the question, they trace it. but to introduce my reason for being here. after two back surgeries I can not longer work in the field I always worked in. Im am now stuck in a part time job answering phones and processing payroll. (this has been for going on 4 years now) We make our bills, but money is tight. My wife likes to point out that Im not making that much, she has no clue how much damage she is doing, but she wont listen to me. her answer to my problems? Then do something about it. My daughter, tired of the fighting became anorexic, and once a honor roll student, is now fighting to keep grades because she wont eat and cant pay attention. she is in therapy twice a week right now. I have the State claiming I owe them back taxes, that I dont, but they wont let up, they have levied my pay for two different tax bills, and now After paying off those, another bill showed up in the mail, they wont let me go. I evidently owe more in taxes than Ive made in the last four years. I have not been sleeping, and I am seriously depressed (wife doesnt want to hear about it) the stress has me feeling anxious all the time, in the last year Ive lost my appetite and have lost 60 lbs. at 53 years old, I dont have the time to change too much right now, so I am seriously thinking about just ending it. for tonight, I have taken two anxiety pills, and am in the process of drinking down about 6 ounces of Black Velvet. Wont kill me, but I should sleep pretty good for a change. I have already pretty much cut ties to friends, and have closed down social media outlets with family. I spent time tonight getting things in order that would be needed if I were to "leave" at any rate, it would be nice to have a ready outlet to talk. an outlet that wont result in someone tracing my phone number and sending intervention. I think I bypassed the act tonight, but every day the thought gets stronger, and I know its coming.