My best friend threatened to kill herself due to health ailments. I told her let me kill myself first because I can't cope without you. She laughed. But still, she is very miserable and I'm afraid of what might happen. She has a method. I feel like my world is coming to an end as well. I feel particularly bad that I'm not enough to live for. I will talk to her tomorrow. We were supposed to get together for New Year's Eve, but I'm getting over a cold so it's questionable. When the holidays don't work out, it's so painful. So your site is getting me through the night.