I hate hearing it gets better it will get better. Thats what i thought when i endured years of bullying and nasty people saying bad stuff behind my back because they enjoy hurting others as a past time. Thats what i thought when i endured those people blaming me and making up idiotic excuses that a five year old would not believe for what they have done and watched as everyone took their side. Because school is so important ( nope!!!) and oh it gets better. it has been 8 years and it did not get better. Well yes after high school i didn't meet any more people that did that. But i already had permanent brain damage by then. And you know what? it didn't get better. Because i still have to experience the same pain every single day. I don't enjoy anything and i constantly think about killing myself. I have tried to kill myself a lot more so recently but it is not easy because of natural reflexes. Even if i could just push a magic button to cure this or to die, i would chose to die without hesitation. I do not find confiding in others of much benefit at all since I have social anxiety disorder as well as severe depression which makes me not want to talk to other people and not only get no enjoyment out of conversation, I find that it makes me feel horrible. I have regressed to the point where i can't even talk to people on this site anymore. Why should i live just for the purpose of existing? Because "it gets better"? it doesn't get better and i don't have any reason to believe it even could.