It doesn't matter if I decide to live or die

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by twilight, Apr 7, 2007.

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  1. twilight

    twilight Well-Known Member

    I'm so sick of the voice in the back of my head that practically begs me to commit suicide. I can think about all of the reasons why I should be alive and I can even decide not to do it. But it doesn't matter because the desire to do it is always there. I can also try to make friends but I can't do that either. I am such a horrible friend and I know it is only a matter of time before they get sick of me. It probably already happened. Let's see if they still want to hang out with me. I doubt it. I know that happy people do not want to be around suicidal depressed people. Its very possible that soon I will no longer have any friends at all. :sad:
     
  2. Scum

    Scum Well-Known Member

    This I can relate to. So much. I don't have a solution, but you are certainly not alone. All I can suggest is to keep fighting the urge.

    Have you talked to your friends about how you feel? Maybe if you can approach them about it and they can reassure you, it might help you.

    True friends stick there through thick and thin. If they deserted you when you needed them, and were ill, then they don't deserve your friendship.

    Do you think it would help you to get out and meet some new people? Maybe try some support groups for people with problems similar to yours? Or join some clubs and meet some people that have similar interests?

    Hang in there honey
     
  3. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    True friends DO stick with you thru thick and thin. I do, and my best friends do. Circumstances have nothing to do with friendship - it's all about love. All I can do is echo what S. said: hang in there honey!:hug:

    love,

    least
     
  4. What about "friends" who abandon you when you need them most, and then ask for forgiveness when it's all over?
     
  5. Scum

    Scum Well-Known Member

    as far as I can work out, they are not real friends. They are fair weather friends and should not be trusted.
     
  6. Pretty much what I thought. I'd been called childish for not accepting the apology. I feel like I have grounds not to accept the apology. I really hate the fact that me not accepting the apology automatically makes me the lesser person.
     
  7. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I would forgive them and give them another chance to be a real friend... but if they blew that last chance... no more chances.

    least
     
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