It doesn't matter how good I am, or if I'm good at something. It doesn't matter how hard I try or if I try at all. The fact that I have to rely on other people, means I will always be stuck. I know I'm not the greatest and there are plenty of people better at things than me but I am generally above average in almost anything I try. But that doesn't mean anything in society. It's more important about who you know, than what you know. Whether you are willing to lie, cheat, steal and fuck over other people. I feel like having actual principles is a fucking hinderance. I can't even play my online shooters because they involve relying on other players and all they care about is their own personal score, not the fucking team. I feel like, while not real life, it represents the mentality I encounter everytime I finally do go out in public. Who cares about anyone else, as long as I get my gratification and I look good. Nevermind the bigger picture or that the other people around me are suffering because they can't do it alone. I will sacrifice myself in a game if it helps the overall picture. Not my teammates though. 80% just sit back and watch the objective, racking up their kills and score. Who cares about winning as long as their stats look good. And if people do play the game, they will use the cheapest and most pathetic tactics. They will exploit any advantage whether it is supposed to be there or is simply a mistake. Who cares if it ruins the experience for everyone else. I may be handicapping myself by living by an actual honour code, but I really don't want to live in this society that is all about ME, ME, ME. The only time these assholes care about someone else is if it benefits them.