I'm 60 and just released from the psychiatric ward of a hospital about 3 hours away. It was my 2nd hospitalization - last one was in 2001. I came out feeling as though I would be able to make it but today the suicidal thoughts came back big time. I am taking my meds and exercising. I just need to find the right way to leave. I will probably be going on long term disability / retirement but that will mean that I have to look for work again and putting myself you there is terrifying. I have folks who are trying to help but I just feel so lonely all the time. I'm not sure how long I can keep up the facade of being OK.