Sleep has always been the solution to my problems. Everything is better in the morning. It used to be. Now I wake up without hope. I'm also on weird hours now. I suspect I'll be asleep by 8:00 this morning; I typically wake up around 4 in the afternoon. I want to be asleep now. I don't want to be a part of reality anymore... but I have no choice. Even if I did manage to get to sleep now, I wouldn't be able to sleep in the morning so I'd still have to deal with reality. I wish I could just sleep all the time. Maybe wake up for an hour a day for food and grooming and daily stuff, but no time to sit and be bored and depressed. I had a bit of a nightmare yesterday. I was abandoned by another friend... Dreams are my only escape, I don't want them to turn lousy, too.