I have been thinking of doing this for a while now. This will mark attempt #4, and It will work. I'm going to put a >mod edit-gentlelady-methods> I can't keep being treated like shit. I am insane. Every day something bad happens. Therapy and pills have never helped me. The problems. Scratch that. The issues that I have in my head Will never go away. Every Girlfriend I've had has cheated on me. One even killed there self after they realized what they did, and for some reason I blame it on me. I have a problem in my head where I have very strong emotions of sadness. I have been taking pills for it, and it never goes away. I'm wasting 40 dollars a week for this useless shit. It all started in 5th grade. People messed with me because I self harmed. My first attempt was when I was 12. They thought it was funny that I had cuts on me. They laughed at me. Now here I am in 12th grade, and people are still laughing at me. Beating me up afterschool. The more I tell them to stop, the more they attack. I once threaten them that if they didn't stop beating me up I'd kill them. In response 2 guys raped my brother. He is only 11 years old. Is this all my fault? I need help from people who know how how I feel, or i'll be dead soon.