me committing suicide that is. i know i more than likely wont, because I'm a chicken. my stupid extended family are all coming here, from "back home" as refugees. and now they are all going to see how pathetic i am with people, conversation, and social settings in general. they're gonna see how i sit at home all day, and never have any will to do anything any other normal person enjoys doing. now I'm going to have to be around people, when i hate that. And if i don't sit around them, ill be labeled as rude. they'll all surely assume that i think i am better than them and don't want to be around them, or, theyll just plain realize the truth, that I'm a pathetic excuse for a man compared to them. well anyways, i don't know why i even posted this.... pointless really.