I can't seem to get away from thoughts of suicide. It seems like the right thing to do for so many reasons. What do I have to do to stop death from being a good-looking option? I'm starting to scare myself a bit. It seems like I could decide to just up and go any minute. I don't know if I want that. I built up a lot of goals and hopes, though they're seeming impossible right now, and that's what's keeping me back, I think.
I feel like I'm slowly (or sometimes not so slowly) losing those hopes. What's gonna happen when they're all gone? It seems right, comfortable and final like it's what should be.
Only I don't want it. I want to be happy and build up the life I've destroyed again.
I don't know what I'm after. I guess I'm hoping for a miracle. Hehe.
Anyway, love y'all, don't worry your pretty heads.
Caz xxx
I feel like I'm slowly (or sometimes not so slowly) losing those hopes. What's gonna happen when they're all gone? It seems right, comfortable and final like it's what should be.
Only I don't want it. I want to be happy and build up the life I've destroyed again.
I don't know what I'm after. I guess I'm hoping for a miracle. Hehe.
Anyway, love y'all, don't worry your pretty heads.
Caz xxx