During my usual day i always have suicidal thoughts no matter if i feel happy, or sad. Of course when i am happy, which i never am those thoughts are weak, but when i am sad, 80% of my day - these thoughts are really strong and dangerous. So i have been wondering, is it only me or most people feel like this : One hour ago i wanted to commit suicide, right now i feel alright. Probably in next hour or two i will be very suicidal again, and the next day i will be the same. Happy, then i will remind myself of some sad situation or something bad will happen and i will be suicidal. But mostly i am suicidal for no reason, which is really weird. Nothing happens, and i momentally become suicidal, sad, depressed out of nowhere!