It hurts so bad. It hurts so bad, I just want to make it stop. I'm so very very tired. If I could I would make it so I never existed. I just want it to end. But I've lost two siblings to suicide already and as much as despise my family, I don't think I could hurt anyone that badly. But it hurts so much and I'm so tired, I just want to make it stop. At least if I kill myself I can make it stop.