**trigger** **rant** I have a long history of childhood sexual abuse. I've always figured talking about what has happened but every time I try to talk about it I shut down... I either have a panic attack ir put my head down and can't find any words to say.. I know I'm still young so there is still plenty of time to recover but I'm really starting to feel like I'm never going to recover from this. I talked about it to my counsellor, a good 30 minutes before I shut down... My counsellor said "you were exploited.." And i just freaked..I just can't handle things like that.. I feel so horrible admitting it what happened... I felt like I had just been stabbed... It hurts so much to talk about these things. I feel like I should just give up because it causes so much pain trying to recover.. I don't know what to do anymore.