My back hurts... my chest hurts... my feelings hurts. I'm just miserable right now. It almost 2 am and I've been trying to sleep for the last 2 hours... I kept finding small problems that kept me awake and tried to solve them... And now I'm sobbing. I know I am trying to sleep so I can get up early and chat with my LDR boyfriend... but yeah. My life just seems so... hollow? I can't work as things are right now... I can't concentrate enough to work on my writing... I'm haunted by so many memories of so much abuse... and my body hurts. The pain relief I take are not nearly enough to help me... Blegh. I just needed to whine I guess. In the morning when my boyfriend asks how I am ill probably just say 'fine'... I know he cares and he wants to be there... but he doesn't need me to be down. Thursday he's getting a second scan of his brain since one they did recently was inconclusive and we're both pretty worried... he's brain damaged after an accident he had as a teen... Sorry. But FML.