deciding on ones own end. I've contemplated on it before, but I've had problems with the method taken in the past. Not so anymore. I've still about two months time to the actual event, and it feels great. I'm sure I will follow through.
You are correct of course. I didn't even think of that when i chose a date. For me, it serves as a focal point, gives me a sense of purpose that i never had before. It is something i can work towards to, something i can except.
You are correct of course. I didn't even think of that when i chose a date. For me, it serves as a focal point, gives me a sense of purpose that i never had before. It is something i can work towards to, something i can expect.
I set dates sometimes when I'm down, especially when I'm feeling helpless or like I have no control over my feelings. I can relate to what you mean. I know you don't like the word "hope" being used, but anyways, nice talking to you. Stay safe...Alex
I hate that, when you're sitting in the dark, trying to think of the BEST way to kill yourself. And all these ideas are running through your head and you're like, "oh that idea just sucks." I can't tell you how many times I was about to cut myself open and the, as I looked in the mirror, I thought, "this isn't the way I'm going down. <mod edit: *sparkle* methods>? I can do better." So I live for another day. I can't really tell you to not be suicidal. That would make me a hypocrite and I hate hypocrisy. I mean, if you're really REALLY into dying, then I doubt anyone on a website says is going to help, but if there's part of you that's scared or feels like dying would leave too much undone or that there's something to live for...I don't think you'll go through with it when the time comes. Just from personal experience.
I'm not saying i'm past that. You could say this forum is my last ditch effort too. the point being here that there's still two months to go and i'll be checking in regularly. nothing's set in stone... yet.
<mod edit: *sparkle* methods> Just laying that out there :p
Also, I wanna be like, "no, there are other ways. You don't have to kill yourself," but really, we know that's shit. Everyone on this forum knows what it's like. We all have our own reasons to die. Unless there's someone here who's going to change your life, the entire outcome of your contemplation of suicide all rests on you.