It is ALL

WANK.

Goodbye.

 

fuck you all fuck you all fuck you all for not seeing for passing me from pillar to post for not seeing for not realising that anything was wrong for belittling my pain for telling me that I am OK for not understanding the intensity of the hurt for expecting me to live for taking me for granted for obstructing my exit fuck you all for forcing me to live this life for it is no life it is merely an existence fuck you all for disparaging my desperation for not seeing my depression fuck you all for everything fuck you all fuck you all fuck you all

THIS DOES NOT EXPRESS ANYTHING AT ALL

FUCK YOU ALL FOR MY INARTICULATION

As I sit here typing I imagine my lacerated body. It pleases me.

 

It's good to just say it. If you want a good rant go ahead, i'll read it but will never be offended because I feel exactly the same. You sound angry, depressed and sick of life. It's a bad day.

 

Alison.. :hug: I agree with joce, rant, rant RANT, use this thread to let out your frustrations or write poetry to your hearts content because you clearly sound fed up of the way people are treating you. We understand that you're in pain, and I wish there was more we can do. You're a lovely person and you're also a strong person and I know you can get through this difficult time. Big hugs :hug:

 

I WILL NOT ABANDON YOU, NO MATTER WHAT. I WILL NOT STOP LOVING YOU. I WILL NOT STOP SEEING GOOD IN YOU. I WILL NOT STOP TRYING MY DAMNDEST TO OBSTRUCT YOUR TOO-SOON EXIT. I WILL NOT STOP TRYING TO "FORCE YOU" TO SEE YOUR LIFE AS A GIFT. I WILL NOT ABANDON YOU NOR WILL I STOP LOVING YOU. YOU ARE MY DEAR DEAR FRIEND, ALISON, AND ALWAYS WILL BE. I LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!!!!!!!:smile:

love forever,

least

imagining your lacerated body does not please me but makes me terrified and in tears

 

these are the most beautiful lines i've ever read.