i've been considering self harming... i never ever thought i would, but lately it just calls to me. there's so much pain, so much hurt that i can't control. and I just want to watch myself hurt, I guess. I don't know how to explain it. My logical adult brain knows it's a bad idea.. but I just can't see how and why. I've heard that it makes people feel a million times worse after the temporary relief from the pain. There's on actual reason. But lately I think why not? Why not? Why shouldn't I? Can anyone give me a reason why this is a bad idea?