I have some friends... I have some hobbies... I'm just sad though and I don't know what to do. I think about the girls in my grade and I'm sad because my love life thus far has been really bad and my ex girlfriends hurt me. My friends are boring, somehow we never end up hanging out or doing anything together and it just feels like an empty friendship. School is *okay* but mostly its just a daily dose of bullshit, and it just won't end. Two hard weeks left to study, and then after two months spent alone, I just start over only the year is harder. I'm tired of life and I don't know what I want, or how to get it. I'm tired of hurting people and being generally awkward and always wondering why I can't be ther person they would like. I also try to help you all on this site but I feel like I never get it quite right and that I end up hurting a lot of you. I'm sorry! There's so much I wish I could do, but can't. There's so much I wish I knew, but don't. :sad: