Yea, lets sum it up in three words- "FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" if only you were that lucky. I know peepz are probs sick of my whining, my bullshit, and me playing my own violin, and ive tried to refrain, but screw it, im done. There is NO reason for me to keep living. I dont know why i hesitate, or stop myself. My family doesnt care. My therapist doesnt understand me. All the people i care for i cannot have any contact with, and i hate myself. I hear that voice in my head saying to me "you are such a fucking brat, you are a little wh*re, you are nothing but a pain in everyones ass, why are you still alive, why havent you killed yourself left.... there are tons of way you could do it.... you could ____ you could _____ you could ________ and nobody would care, noone would miss you for long, and there is no reasonf or them to have to deal with you still." god, i wish the little bitch in my head would just shut the fuck up, cuz im about to lose it. I dont think i can do this anymore. Ive cried for hours, and cried myself out, and all that there is left is the agonizing pain in my head, and the fucking little voice telling me what a worthless bitch i am. Like i dont know this already. Im ready to cut myself open. I dont care what they say, my therapist's little "what to do before you cut" list, yeah, i tried it, thanks but no thanks, sucking on a lollipop, holding a piece of ice, and listening to music IS NOT FUCKING HELPING ME. i cant do this anymore. period. i want to die. i need to die. Its the only way to shut my head up, to stop me from being aproblem to everyone else, and to just finally find an end.