it never ends

[pit]

The mental anguish. The isolation. The paranoia.

I've been disturbed since I was 12. I've seen therapists off and on. I go to a depression group. I go to this website. I wish I could talk to my two good friends more often. I do most of the calling. It's hard to talk about the good things in my life because I can't find any. Maybe I'm bringing people down, I don't know.

One thing I'd like to get straight is, when a person kills themselves, that individual is treated like they never existed. All the good done in that person's life is now looked through a gray shrouded glass. The stigma renders everything else irrelevent. It just goes to show you how pig-headed society is. Did it ever occur to these moral morons that the person was pushed beyond the pain limit?

I'm in my 40s. When I feel down, I feel worse than before. My fucking insurance won't cover any individual psychotherapy. I can't afford antidepressants. I feel like I'm struggling, struggling, struggling. It would be easy for me to get a gun and end my life. I need a big change in my life. Like, right now.

 

[Erebos]

What can we do to fight the stigma? No one wants to talk about it. They see it as a joke.

At work, I was listening to a "depressing song." A coworker heard and commented. I replied and said sarcastically, "Yes, I am depressed." We both laughed. Only one of us meant it.

Again, today, a coworker was preparing to interview for a job at a university residence. He said he wanted the opportunity to talk the suicidal resident out from jumping off the top of the building as that may be one of the perks of the job. We all laughed. One of us didn't mean it.

 

[pit]

Yes, suicide is the last great taboo, the unforgivable sin.

 

[TheBLA]

Yes, I also hate this goddamn stigma and taboo of talking about suicide and depression when it NEEDS to be talked about, discussed and we want to turn a blind eye to it and joke about it. Damn this society.

Oh hell, who doesn't hate this stigma? It affects us poor depressed and suicidal people the most where we're even more isolated and ostracized and like that helps our depression. :dry:

 

[ace]

How I see it if I want to end it all I really don't want anyone talking me out of it,It's my choice and I don't need to go on to endure more suffering this is on a personal basis and my thought's only.

 

[rd9671]

I think some people are afraid and overwhelmed by the thought/idea that someone they know is depressed enough to want to end their lives. I have found that most people don't know what to do in that kind of a situation. We, as the "afflicted", need to tell them what we need in order for them to help us because they simply don't know. As an example, I had to tell my best friend and my family that if I started to drop out of life and they noticed it beyond two weeks that they should contact me in a very direct manner. They needed to know what some of my early warning signs were in order to help me before things get too desperate. And for the most part it works pretty well.