most of the time i wish and pray to die. and it doesn't happen and it makes me mad. i wish things could have been different. i don't want to be a depressive. i guess no one does. all i ever wanted was to be loved and happy...and it doesn't happen. and i am sick of not being validated. i understand that life is hard sometimes, and that everyone gets down...but most people aren't down all the time. most people don't wake up hoping that every single day is their last. i want to die so badly.