It never is enough... No matter how much I do I will never please him. It's a lost case. Yet part of me still thinks that I can. I don't know why I can't let go of that dellusion...It would probably add some stability to my condition now. Yet I still stubbornly think that I might earn a compliment for him...Or at least that he wouldn't hate me as much as he does. What frustrates me even more is his false claims that he still cares...IT'S NOT FAIR! (Then again, what is?) And no matter how much blood I spill, it won't ever be enough. My addiction is horrible...And I can't break it! NO - It doesn't solve anything. It merely releases the pain...temporarily...And no matter how guilty I feel, nothing changes.