I don't really know what to say actually...I think my title pretty much covered it all. I'm normally a very good writer, but I've been blocked for months. I guess One might tell that by the fact that the second sentence made no sense. It should have been: 'I normally write very well, but I have had writers block for months.' I always make silly mistakes like that. Stupid. Ones that i should have stopped making back in grade three. I'll never be a great author if I can't even master simple sentence structure. Your probably wondering by now, "it only hurts when i breathe" what does that title have to do with any of this. Well, I'll answer you. Everything. I breathe, and it's like no air is going into me. I know that there is oxygen going into my lungs, but that's not what I mean. I mean AIR. Like, when you're angry and you take a deep breath and it calms you, or when you're crying and you just try and breathe to slow down. Or like, when people say "go away i just need some space to breathe" but they're not really being crowded physically. That's the kind of air that I mean. I can't get it. It's like this.....force...or pressure is just building up inside of me and I can't do anything to let it out! I used to write, but even that didn't always work, and now I find that I can't write. I cut......sometimes...and I don't WANT to...they (people, doesn't matter who just call them they for now) told me, I'm too old to be doing this. When am I going to mature? but i TRIED to stop, and it always only lasts for a little bit. I keep going back..no matter what. I don't want to die by cutting, it just makes me feel a little bit better. Like, alcohol..which I drink as well. My boyfriend hates them both. He thinks I'm an alcoholic. For the record? I'm not. I just feel like, I want to go to sleep and never wake up. No more stress, feeling like i have to be perfect, no more perfect bodies..none of that bull shit that makes me feel like...well, like shit!! Every story in the world has a beginning, a middle and an end. I'm way past the beginning....where is the end? Can I find it now please?? there....i dunno if I said everything right...but I said it....most of it....Thats not everything but...does it have to be?