I just seem to suffer problem after problem, like both my body AND my mind have been cursed by something, or someone. Firstly, I have had stomach ulcers for ages, which have reaklly caused me pain and discomfort for so long, I have tendonitis in my hand, i have a fucked up cartilage in my right knee, i have a broken thumb and a scar on my face from a fall. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, i keep hearing voices and they keep telling me that im worthless, im not supposed to be here and the world would be better without me. I have come to terms with the fact that they are not real, it took me ages, but i understand this now, but how can they not be, if they are there 24/7, 365 days a year? I feel like I want to kill myself at every given moment, and feel like every relationship i have entered into, I have ruined due to my insecurity. i am cursed, i am destined to have nothing.